Having the problem of alcoholism, or any other problem in a cult, surrounded by gang members does not go hand in hand, and is not condusive to any kind of recovery.  This is because in general, gang members are overcompetitive, and always looking for thing to diminish people they know are better than they are, in any way.  So, admitting to this and expecting gang members to act like human beings is really expecting the unexpected, like expecting a dog to "moo" like a cow.  I am not really sure that I ever had this problem to begin with, but know that I have had binge drinking episodes which my life would have been better without.  Since I have been surrounded by abo\users and gang members all of my life, who were always willing to label me and do things to abuse me, I thought that going to A.A. to check this out would serve two purposes:  1.  To find out about this problem of alcoholism, and 2. To discover how many other people were able to help themselves, along with being exposed to many, many kinds of people and their stories.  I am so glad that I had the experience of going to A.A. for many, many years before being thrown full force into this Woo-Woo land and the "players" here.  In my life, no matter what I did or did not do, there were always crooks nearby looking to use 'whatever' as a weapon to abuse me.  The reality of the situation is crooks love to hear this kind of thing, and then try to pin all kinds of things on anyonw who has the gumption to even "think" they may have this problem, as a spite driven thing.  Because my total background was exhumed, it has to be obvious to other people that I really wasn't even close to what they would consider an alcoholic, but that I usually don't drink, or will have one drink.  

 

Women in general...

in or around cults and gangs, are supposed to be subserviant, stupid, and less than.  Women who have been abused for as long as I have are bound to have some substance abuse issue or another, and I am surprised that I don't and never had a daily drinking habit, or anything even close to this.  Wooster is such a weird place that even the local chemical dependency treatment facility, at least for females, does not want people working there to admit that they ever had a problem with alcohol or any other substance and ever went to A.A. meetings at any time to people in treatment there, at least according to what I was told when working there.  This is how strange and covert these people in Wooster really are in areas where most human beings would use this as an "in" to treat people who still have this problem.  Then I have found in my personal life, that some family members and crooks have used "alcoholism" as an excuse to abuse and beat up other people because their orientation was "spitefulness", not "education" in regard to this or any other topic.